Now that we are in Idaho again, we have moved in with my parents for a while just until we get a few paychecks in our account and find a place to rent. In some ways, its every bit as stressful as it sounds, but in other ways its really not so bad. My parents have a few acres of land, two horses, a dog, a barn…. pretty standard stuff when you imagine Idaho (especially if you don’t live here). Thankfully, we are living in the barn. I understand that initially sounds horrible! It’s actually a very nice little studio apartment in their barn and no, it doesn’t smell like horse, we don’t have mice and its really quite nice.
Although, we are spending most of our time up at the house, its nice to have our own space. We can cook our own meals and it keeps everyone’s nerves a little calmer. I am struggling with the feeling of limbo and having the baby sleeping in the same room as us. I can’t feel fully settled until we have our own place that I can start to make our home. I very much like my routines and its hard to develop one when I know this is a temporary situation.
Our 1 year old does not sleep well in the same room as us. He wakes up a lot and cries and whines because he can see and smell us nearby. He sleeps great when he’s in his own room away from the temptation of mom and dad. I long for a good night’s rest and to sleep through the night, isn’t pregnancy exhausting enough on its own without having to care for a needy toddler? Oh right, that’s called Motherhood.
At 15 weeks, pregnant with twins, I’m pretty tired. Up until this point I have still been jogging a few miles 3-4 times a week. It’s something that nourishes my toddler and I. He enjoys the quiet time and the scenery. I also enjoy the quiet and scenery but also do it to take care of my body. I ran through my whole pregnancy with him, but with these twins, I have decided to be extra cautious and to call it quits this week.
Not only am I less motivated and fit this pregnancy than last time, but it just doesn’t feel 100% ok either. I’m growing so much faster and every step feels like my legs are led weights. It is so beneficial in pregnancy just to be up and moving; I don’t have to be running like a maniac (like last time) to have a healthy pregnancy. This pregnancy is defiantly more low key and I’m being gentler with myself this time. Yoga and walking for this lady! I’m thinking about picking back up lap swimming; that would be really good for me but I haven’t quite worked out the logistics for that endeavor yet.